icecold0123's Diaryland Diary

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I feel like i'm in a crowded room and i'm all alone. I never knew what it meant to fake a smile. Thats all i seem to be doing doing lately.
I wish i could leave home and move to another state where no one knows me. If times weren't so tough i would.
A new start where no one knows my past. Maybe i wouldn't push them away like i do everyone else.
Fuck i can't even keep one thought at a time. My mind is every where.
In four months i'm going to be kicked off my parents health insurance. I should be graduating college. Making memories with friends.
So what do i have? nothing. i've dropped out of college and who knows if i will ever go back to school. the only reason i went in the first place was for my parents.
I don't talk to my friends. Not like i wanted to stop talking to them. Its just what i do. I haven't even talked to Jess since she got married in September. i am a horrible person.
I'm in a pit from hell.
I need to leave i have to get away. I'm afraid to leave my comfort zone. I don't know what to do anymore.

6:25 p.m. - 2009-02-21

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